wow... i had pretty much lost this blog since i moved back into my parents house. that's fucked up...

so yea.. moved back in... found me a hot fucking boy-thing... i really have no idea what we are... that fustrates me so much... i don't want to ask.. "so are we boyfriend and girlfriend now?" that seems so childish... but then again i don't want to assume and then begin getting even more attatched when that's not what it actually is. GRrrrr. i need to learn how to handle these things...

apprarnlty in accordance to bodytalk i'm actually going to marry him... and have kids... woh... fucked up man... we shall see. the scary thing is that as soon as i met him i was hooked. we were dancing and he was able to mirror and mimic and dance so well, i bearly even knew how to react besides with pure joy, in a movement where he gazed at me over his glasses and we locked eyes i would have gladly said that i would marry him.... so scary. i don't know what to do! Gah!

at least he's good in bed... and willing to learn... :) i mean..... nothing... nothing at all.. heh.

woh...
what a strange day..
so, yea, had a reflex appointment schedualed for today.. they turned up at prenatal..
and i bought a violin... A VIOLIN!!! HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!
i'm beyond excited btw..
also.. the spoons have landed but... painless... interesting... very interesting...
anyhow.. VIOLIN!!!!
her name is Rose..
i saw another one there... her name is Charise.. i played her in a past life.. it was interesting seeing her and knowing that.. weird...
also a few of the girls at work are reading the twilight series, makes me giggle inside.. as i have finished it now... *snicker*
think i may just move into my parents house till august.. it's cheaper while i'm taking violin and piano lessons, and saving up for university... makes sense.. to me at least, and this time is dosen't feel like defeat, which is awesome.


oh! and i met the dude who's going to ink me! Sweeeeeet.

~K

right-o... so the first of the two shuffles has occurred.
now i'm horribly sick.. blarg fuck.
well it's all worth it in the end i suppose.

wellity alot can happen in a small space fo time it would seem.
told nick my feelings... may be seeing him at Boyd and Leah's b-day we'll see how that goes.
opened up to kat a bit, came to terms with my bi-sexuality a bit.
and now i can't get the image of both abby and nick out of my head...
moving today.. well.. moved most of my stuff yesterday just moving the last little bit.
though i am stalling pretty fucking well... arg.
i'll be off now.

wellity ain't that funny...
the night i choose that the next day i'm talking to nick about my feelings for him i have awesome dreams about him... lol oh the mind and it's amusements.

it went along the path of my starting to tell him how i feel about him
(we were alone in someone's home at night)
when he stopped to interrupt me, and he kissed me.. and it kinda continued from there... heh
well i can only hope it goes nearly as well as that!
that would be awesome.

second dream was about me living on my own... i had my parents over at my apartment that went fine they left... i was locking up and started to explore the entrance area to the building, i found the foundation of the building and it was all destroyed and falling apart (i was flying BTW and this is at night(male)) as i headed back towards my apartment i crossed paths with a strange creature, the person in front of me was fighting it for soem reason, after they injured the thing they moved on, i went up to the creature and whispered things into it's ear, upon hearing these things it healed and improved beyond it's state before, it could now fly, and it allowed me to climb upon it's back and fly with it.

pretty sure that dream is about movign in with natalie, seeing the bare foundation that i have left from past lives, correcting them and then moving forward with ease through the rest of my journy. makes sense to me.

anyhow, wish me good luck for tonight!

~K

blarg... guess i have to deal with shit no matter what.... fuck...
well here it goes!
And hey i want to deal with it because
I want to DO the MUSIC!!!!
i'm excited to do the MUSIC!
these are all just the steps in preparation for the wonderment of the MUSIC!!!

whoop whoop!
2 reports done for school! the second one came out so fast! awesome!
just have to read a book to get the last one done and i can use that book for the book report! SCHWEEET!

all is moving along nicely.
i also re-arranged where i am sleeping, it was fucked up badly feng shui wise. i have a feeling it's going to help immensely, in fact my sleeping was so much more restful last night.
Yea!